SO yeah, i am feeling a bit better, then i did from my last post (it was friends only) figured i am really loved by Anthony, Emilie, Sam, and my Mother. Altough i still think my dad's an asshole, i'll get over it. I'm greatful for having such great friends, and a great boyfriend. And for those of you who are all "Anthony can't be THAT great" he really is. I mean yeah i couldn't go the show with him, but he made a sticker that says "I have a girlfriend (and she'll rip your titties off)" and is wearing it at the show =]... he's great and i love him haha.
Emilie helped me out alot, just by letting me know she cares, i know sam cares, but she's sick (feel BETTERR!!!).. my mom's taking me out to dinner and the mall when my dad gets home... I'm still a depressed, but more optomistic. (i can't spell).. I'm just easily agrivated, and very violent when i'm depressed. i trashed my room, then cleaned it.. that trashed it again.. and my bed is currently turned over and i think i broke a couple things. nothing that glue can't fix =]... so yeah i was talking to my mom and she's going to sign me up for some kickbowing to get my aggression out. i'm listening to ska, so its keeping me a bit upbeat, kinda weird. My idea is that if i listen to happy music, sooner or later i'll get happy. I might be able to see anthony tomarrow, maybe me anthony and emilie will go to the mall, cause i wanna hang out with emilie too.. maybe francois could meet us at menlo or something. i have no clue, but either way i hope to see them both this weekend...
either way, i feel loved. and i'm glad to be here for once.